m'aimer pour qui je suis ~ love me for who i am

i dunno if anyone's still checking my blog since i haven't blogged in a long while, but i just wanted to update that im currently in a temp job which im happy at. in a way i've gone in a circle cos im back where i started (ie theres a chance i'll rejoin my ex company) but its a new team, new boss etc so its a fresh start

despite the h1n1 flu going around im excited about my upcoming trip to tokyo, my first time in the city besides the stopovers i made there as a child on my way to lax

in the meantime, im gonna try and take more pictures on my trip, since its been a while that im excited abt a trip * no going to shanghai x times a year doesn't count

and for those who haven't seen me recently, i cut my hair majorly short, its back to a pixie-like cut cos unfortunately long hair doens't look as good on me. im stil tempted to go for blond streaks though, but i couldn't be bothered with the maintenance so whats the point?

anyway enough of my incoherent ramblings, have a good week everyone!

those of you who have met up with me recently know that i am currently obsessed with the prada brand, they have v 'hot' bags...seriously its been a while since i lusted after bags like this...i even frequent the boutique every week, which isn't too surprising since i swing by orchard every week

unfortunately there's only one miu miu boutique here, and the male SA kinda freaked me out a little by asking 'too' personal questions so i shall drool over these bags from afar

what started it all...



am currently lusting after a prada bag, but waiting until the new season of miu miu bags come out

maybe i'll be lucky and find some bargains in hk :) im getting tired, and i want to take a break

been meaning to update my blog for a while, just didn't have much to say...

well i'm almost 2 months into my job and hopefully i am slowly learning the ropes...still feel really blur at times and i ask stupid questions, so hope that this won't affect my performance review...basically i help out with organising the Singapore HeritageFest (18-29July) and answer public enquiries on the national symbols...alot of time spent in front of the computer answering emails etc...my colleagues are really nice people though so thats good

i went for my 2 day orientation last week, and this group picture was taken on the last day, not all of us are 'new' staff as some of my colleagues had missed previous orientations...it was fun and i got to know some of my colleagues...a group of us are now trying to meet up for lunch but its difficult since we do a lot of running around...and we're from different departments (theres 11 depts altogether)

on a totally unrelated note, just got a cheap thrill of seeing my side profile on CNA Singapore Tonight...an interview was conducted at my workplace today for one of our upcoming events and the reported asked if we could pretend to be sorting through the artworks we received, so my office intern and i were 'arrowed', hence tasked with pretending to sort through entries so that it could be used as a 'filler' shot

been occupied with work lately, actually im quite a boring person that way, not much of a social life except meeting my friends when we have the time, and these friends go waayy back from my sec sch days so they know what kind of person i am and i make no excuses for it

right now the only word to describe my current mood is 'jaded'- by lady bosses, by the men in life more specifically the last guy i dated, i find myself thinking of him sometimes but i know its not him that i miss, but the idea of 'us'

re: my new workplace which i started last month, i seem to have switched from one hell to another, don't seem to have much luck with bosses so im making a career switch again, this time im moving to the public sector, i hope that i'll be able to build a good foundation from there...so now im currently serving my notice and each working day is a drag, im such an impatient person that once i know im going to leave i can't stand to stay any longer...i start my new job next mth and it'll be my 3rd job in 6 mths...im hoping for some stability, the way things are at my current company theres always someone leaving each week, and new ppl coming in at the same time that it becomes an endless cycle

my 1st job gave me a glimpse of workplace relations, i learnt the hard way not to get involved with my colleague but i had a handful of nice colleagues
my 2nd job made me realise that i wouldn't have been suited to be an editor, at least not when im correcting singlish all day, but i have very nice colleagues, plus i realised the abundance of good food available at tanjong pagar :p
i hope to learn much more from my 3rd job, im told that it'll be a steep learning curve so i hope im up to the challange, my dad's really excited for me cos he says that its a proper career lol only now did i realise that my dad got his start as a civil servant in mindef so in a way im following in his footsteps?

just completed one week of work, yup my new job working at a learning centre requires me to work from wed-sun, with mon/tue off and so far so gd (fingers crossed)...its hard getting back into the work routine but i'm getting used to it, although i think i'm gonna gain weight cos my work place at tanjong pagar is near to some really nice food places...back to spending more money on food lol

you told me its not possible to be friends with your ex, but if nothing happened bet us why do you have to avoid me?

its not that i miss u, i blame it on hormones

I spent christmas in shanghai again, if only cos its easy to make arrangements there and its far enough away from singapore to have an actual winter climate...roomed with my sis as usual, we spent the week in nantong watching dvds and the last few days in shanghai shopping at every opportunity...its amazing how in one short year more global brands are popping up there, i myself favored the kfc chicken wrap and the corn salad, whereas i wont even go near kfc or mackers in singapore, just for the lame reason that when you're in a foreign country where everyone supposedly speaks 'pu tong hua'  theres nothing like fast food or a globalised brand to make you feel like home, although i'm trying to swear off fast food for as long as possible since reading fast food nation

anyways one of the points of my trip was to eat xiao long bao, and while i didnt manage to find many good-tasting ones we did go to this place which is famous for them, hence this pic...ps its not real, im not that greedy nor do i have that big of an appetite



in other news i'm still job hunting, its a long process made harder by my mum bitching every single day about my lack of work until i can't take much anymore...last week i went back to my old workplace to pick up my last check and have lunch with my ex-colleague, we exchanged the usual pleasantries and i asked her if there was any gossip about me, and what she said wasn't that surprising, cos i did leave on a v bad note with my ex-boss, but that still doesn't give her the right to make a joke abt me, although his response to it did make me see him in a clearer light, and i've told myself that i will delete all his smses to me, cos hes not the first guy to tell me these things, nor will he be the last

january seems to be the month when everyone is traveling, so far 5 people i know (from aust) have either visited singapore recently or are coming soon...one of them is my ex, and i was surprised when he messaged me on msn to ask if i wanted to meet him, although he did pose it in the negative, as if he'd already expected me to decline him...although i am curious to know what he looks like and all now, i decided it was best not to, since on msn our conversation tends to be awkward so i might as well not make it a more painful process in person

oh yeah, forgot to mention that on the flight back from shanghai we had to take a bus to the plane, and this being a flight back to singapore (where we can assume that the majority of the passengers are singaporeans) there was a mad rush to board the bus, then out of the bus and to the plane) not an experience i hope to repeat anytime soon cos i am afraid of heights and its a long climb up those steps...but my sis and i took the opportunity to take a photo, cos thats the closest i'll get to the exterior of a boeing jet

due to various reasons which i shall not go into detail here, the main reason being that my ex-boss is a Bitch, i left my job and am currently job hunting again...its so quickly how a year passes, its been a year since my graduation and here i am again, going to shanghai tomr for the 3rd time in a row...thats the upside of not having a job, i can take a 2 week vacation...and yes this time i shall try to find my own white christmas...back in 2 weeks peeps :) this will be my first time flying business class hehe

was searching the internet for some information today when i came across news that ian thorpe has retired from swimming at the age of 24...guess in some ways i was expecting it, since he hasn't been training much lately plus he had to withdraw from the commonwealth games earlier this year...just wish that i had the chance to watch him swim 'live'...i wish him all the best with his future plans

been having mood swings lately...depressed one moment and ok the next...i really should stop listening to sad songs

Snow Patrol- Chasing Cars

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here

If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

been meaning to post for a while but just never got around to it, since i've started work i don't spend that much time at home and when i am home, my sis or my dad's using my laptop to access the internet...i'm still irritable but hopefully not as much, been trying to get enough sleep and all...im having some problems at work (my boss thinks im not working hard enough) and i worry too much about the small things

everyone keeps telling me not to settle, and i agree with them cos i know i deserve better, but that doesn't stop me from clinging to someone whos there, who says that hes confused (where im concerned) and can't give me what i want...sometimes i ask him out for dinner but at the end of the night im left feeling unfulfilled and i keep telling myself i have to let it go, but its hard cos i see him almost everyday...i don't want to be the one whos always calling, or sms-ing...sometimes i wish he'll call me back but i know he never will

i just need to get through this, and be more settled

thought it was time for an update, after such a long hiatus cos when i was just bumming around i didn't think people would want to hear about how i spent my lazy days and i just didn't feel like updating...suffice to say that im alive and well, and as of tomr i'll have been at my current job for 3 weeks :)

working life has been a big change, firstly because i wasn't used to the hours so when i got home all i wanted to do was sleep,and i got cranky when i couldn't cos my sis was in my room using my laptop and then i'd get all annoyed...secondly cos even though i may not have much work to do, by the time you finish work theres not much time left to do stuff, and not many rest days as well

i realised today that i haven't been binging on junk food as much (rectified that by spending $34 today on Mrs Field's cookies and an assortment of imported cookies bought from Jason's supermarket), and its been a while since i last blasted my music and sang at the top of my lungs (even though im a lousy singer lol) but it felt really good to do so, i felt like i got rid of all my frustration while i sang my heart out to Avril Lavigne's 'My Happy Ending'...for the past 2 days i've had this tight feeling in my chest while i was at work, and i felt really 'sian', also been having mood swings but that can be attributed to hormonal factors and now i feel so much better, i'd forgotten to make time for myself, since with so much time spent at work (i work from 9-6) i didn't want to waste my rest days so i went out (plus my mum was (and still is) driving me nuts with her nagging which usually i just let past but it just got to me so i didn't want to stay at home)

anyway enough of my blabbing, here's my latest bag, a pink Christian Dior canvas bag courtesy of my mum :p take care peeps!